Random thoughts :]

perhaps-someday-iwillbe:

a mere second… 

(Source: nonchalantlyketsy)

I used to care about what the future holds, so I would make sure to spend my present doing things to make the future easier for myself. [making my present miserable and never really that enjoyable].

Now…I can careless about the future, and I only do things when I feel like it. 

Thinking about these two different me’s, I think i liked my past self better. I used to get things done, I used to care about a lot more. Now.. I’m just floating around looking for good times that don’t even last that long. 

I think it’s time to turn the clock, and try to become my old self again. Starting… now.

You can tell me what not to do all you want, but until you tell me what I should do instead… you’ll still be disappointed, and I won’t be the one to blame.

I’m so confused now… damn. What do i want? What do i care about? What the hell are my priorities? 

Am I only thinking of now? Am i being too selfish? Do I care that I’m being selfish? 

Should I call? Will it make things better or worse? 

Why did i push my luck that far? The day was amazing already…why did i just lose it with one text? Or two or three or… akjfkjaskldfs. 

sakfjdaklfjadlkf. damn me. AGAIN